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Sunday, April 17, 2011

Lessons From Past Whisperings

Before I truly recognized Saul's presence, he was still in the backgound attempting to help me find the right paths to follow. There were even times when he gave me actual words when I needed answers or there was something important I needed to know. Now that I have come to know Saul on a more personal level, I realize he talked to me all along, even when I didn't acknowledge him. I am now better at recognizing his voice, but it was the same one I have always heard.

One significan point where Saul gave me a specific word was when I was trying to better define my daughter's emotional/mental/behavioral problems. She had spent months in counseling with no significant changes in behavior or depression. She spent more time under the care of a psychiatrist who diagnosed ADHD and put her on meds. While there were some improvements in her behavior, my intuition told me there was still more to her problems. I prayed to God for additional insight. The word "bipolar" was placed in my consciousness.

Having majored in psychology in college, I was familiar with bipolar disorder and how it manifests in adults. After hearing the word "bipolar", I began to do a little research on the subject and discovered it manifests differently in children--and very much like my daughter. It dawned on me that I could see similar patterns of behavior in other children I worked with in daycare/teaching settings and through church youth activities I helped with. When I questioned their parents about family history of depression/bipolar I was told they had family histories of those issues! As I became more familiar with the symptoms of bipolar in children, I began to recognize potential issues within my own family history which had gone unacknowledged but had presented problems. I received confirmation of this when two adult cousins from different sides of the family were later diagnosed bipolar!

I also remember hearing Saul's voice at a time I was not really looking for any answers. In a quiet moment, I heard the words, "You are an empath" in my mind. My first reaction was, "I'm a what?" I did not even know the definition of the word empath (although I assumed it had something to do with empathy).

As I researched this one, I realized a number of things in the definition fit me. I have always been extremely sensitive to the needs of others, I hate being out in crowds (attributed to receiving too much emotional stimuli), and I have interesting sensitivies to both nature and illnesses. Ironically, animals and children are often highly attracted to me--another tell-tale sign of an empath. As I continue to recognize my gift, I am able to develop it and use it more fully in my life's work.

It isn't necessarily important to acknowledge the source of such whisperings. It's much more important to just receive them in the first place! Still, as you begin to quiet your mind and connect to the Universe, know it will be easier to identify more specifics about the intuitive counsel you receive. You may even find yourself talking with your own guides on a more personal level!